Be Still

It happened.. is happening. The entrance into blogging world. weird but no worries, I won't be taking it by storm or anything. 

Why would I name my blog this? Well partially because that's what was available…
but mainly because “Cease striving and know that I am God" (Psalms 46:10a) has been the constant theme of my life for over a year. Because I am a grace-earner who for the most part has no idea and who still struggles with being still before Him. (if there was a grace-earners anonymous I'd be there weekly) Yet, His grace is sufficient and His power is made perfect in my (and your) weaknesses so we can boast all the more gladly of our weaknesses!

Thankfully, He didn’t just say “be still and know that I am God” and leave me to figure it out but has been patiently working this out in my life over the past year. I wouldn’t say this season of life has been easy; at one point I remember asking Him if I could really trust Him with everything that was going on in my life and heart. That same day He brought me to Psalms 28:6-7 which says  “Blessed be the LORD! For he has heard the voice of my pleas for mercy.The LORD is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him.” (Psalms 28:7). This is exactly what I needed to hear from Him. He heard my prayer and in His goodness answered me, affirming that He was there and that He could be trusted. I don't know why I doubt that sometimes and am thankful He didn't scold me in that moment but gently reminded me of who He is. When we are faithless, He is faithful, He cannot deny Himself. (2 Tim. 2:13)

He is teaching me to sit with Him, to trust Him, to relinquish the control I desperately try to hold on to, to the One who is ultimately in control... and to quiet my heart long enough to see Him in the small things of life.

C.S. Lewis said "The thing is to rely only on God. The time will come when you will regard all this misery as a small price to pay for having been brought to that dependence. Meanwhile, the trouble is that relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing has yet been done." well said Lewis.. well said.








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