Walking on Water

28 And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” 29 He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind,he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” 31 Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” 32 And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. 33 And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.” Matthew 14:28-33

Walking on Water. Peter got to! Jesus called to him and he stepped out, in faith, fixing his eyes on Jesus. He stinkin walked on water! How neat is that.  But then the winds--- he took his gaze off Jesus. He became afraid, and He began to sink. He began to focus on the circumstances of the situation rather than the orchestrator of them.  But then, Peter cries out "save me" and Jesus IMMEDIATELY reaches out his hand and takes hold of him.

I've felt like Peter in recent weeks.

The flood gates of transition have opened wide, and the down pour of decision making is here.  Soooo many decisions will be made over the next few months for the upcoming year. I have been at times overwhelmed by the options and opportunities and fearful-- afraid I might mess it up. In the process, it is so stinkin easy for me to start grabbing for control (whatever that means) so that I can be "safe".  The "what if" questions have begun to creep in.... and  the "me-monster" starts trying to control, and asking "Safety? Is He safe to trust with all these decisions?"

“Safe?” said Mr. Beaver; “don’t you hear what Mrs. Beaver tells you? Who said anything about safe? ‘Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good. He’s the King, I tell you.” ----C.S. Lewis

No, He is not safe. But He is good. His banner is love. He counsels us with His eye upon us, and even while we're walking on water with the winds blowing all about us, He is trustworthy. When Peter stepped out of the boat and onto water--- I don't think any of us would agree that it was "safe"--- from what we know about water. :P
Then He realizes all that's going on and cries out to Jesus, who was there in an instant. Can you imagine how that grew Peter's faith?

I'm thankful we serve the King who isn't safe! Because His ways are higher than our ways. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. He blows out my ideas about Him on a regular basis!

So here I am fighting to lay down my attempts to control and submit to my King, and finding Him singing  "Fix your gaze on me, lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge me and I will direct your path"

No, I don't have the answers, but I am learning to enjoy the adventure!

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  1. ElizabethApril 23, 2013 at 9:06 PM

    Once again, you gave me such timely and encouraging reminders. Thank you so much, Kirsten! I love your tender heart and devotion to our Lord...it's such a joy to see and points me to Him :)

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    1. KirstenApril 29, 2013 at 7:58 PM

      Thanks for your constant encouragement about the blog! Miss you! Hope you are doing well!

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